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The Struggle of the Male Self: A New Left Activist and His 1961 Diary

Published online by Cambridge University Press:  02 September 2015

Abstract

This article examines the 1961 diary of a new left young activist to explore his fractured sense of personal and political self. At the height of the Cold War, John Hoyland was an undergraduate at London's University College, living with his Communist Party family and active in the Campaign for Nuclear Disarmament (CND). His intensely political world notwithstanding, Hoyland's diary reveals that interior life troubled his every day and shaped much of his thinking. Hoyland's self-conscious narrative illuminates self-making, male heterosexuality, generation, and relationships and cultures in the early 1960s British Left. He experienced himself as fragmented and struggled to negotiate his conflicting identities. He felt torn between older models of socialist identity and morality, his hedonism associated with the beatnik metropolitan scene, and his project of personal self-improvement. His diary offers rare insight into the intimate thoughts and feelings of one New Left young man at a time when political, social, and sexual codes and cultures were in transition before the emergence of feminist sexual politics. The article examines the identities Hoyland held as a socialist, sexual, and domestic male subject; it considers how his emotional world and relationships were shaped by his metropolitan landscapes, consisting of CND marches, Communist Party meetings, urban youth spaces, and the parental home; and it discusses Hoyland as a writer and the sense of selfhood the diary helped to make possible.

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2 Ibid.

3 Ibid., 20 January 1961, 4, JHA.

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7 Hoyland kept a regular diary from his mid-teenage years (with some exceptions) up until his death in December 2014. This private collection is currently in the care of his family and is not available for viewing. I came to view Hoyland's 1961 diary and three other diaries from the 1970s, in the years following an oral history interview with him in November 2008. At intervals throughout his life, Hoyland returned to his diaries as sources for stories, poems, and political articles, and especially to inform his writing on feminism and sexual politics. He also contributed to several historical projects on 1960s left-wing activism, radical theater, and on men's experiences with feminism. I am grateful to Hoyland for giving his permission to use material from his diaries and unpublished novel.

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137 Ibid., 9 February 1961, 36, JHA.

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142 Ibid.

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146 Ibid., 45.

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149 Ibid., 5 February 1961, 31, JHA.

150 Ibid., 13 August 1961, 205, JHA.

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152 Dawson, Soldier Heroes, 260.

153 The diary of John Hoyland, 5 February 1961, 31, JHA.

154 Ibid.

155 Black, The Political Culture of the Left in Affluent Britain, 35.

156 The diary of John Hoyland, 21 August 1961, 220, JHA.

157 Ibid., 18 August 1961, 210, JHA.

158 Ibid., 221, JHA.

159 Ibid., 9 September 1961, 251, JHA.

160 Ibid., 2 September 1961, 225, JHA.

161 Ibid, 3 September 1961, 233, JHA.

162 Ibid., 9 September 1961, 251, JHA.

163 Waterman, “Hopeful Traveller,” 169.

164 Richard Coleman, Ralph Davis, Philip Gillmor, and Robert Gillmor, Leighton Park: The First 100 Years (St. Albans, 1989), 23.

165 Lucy Delap has recently highlighted the prevalence of guilt and shame characterizing antisexist men's politics. Lucy Delap, “Undoing Privilege and Power: Anti-Sexist Men and Guilty Politics” (lecture, University of Copenhagen, Denmark, 4 December 2013).